so... these past 7 days haven't been the greatest...all last week i wasn't feeling the greatest, so I wasn't able to give my best at auditions. When the cast was posted, well let's just say that I went home and by the end of the day my eyes were so swollen it was hard to see. Then starting Friday night I began throwing up and that bug wiped me out for the weekend. Today I've been getting dizzy spells evey now and then. Who knows what that's about.
But enough of the depressing stuff. I'm so thankful that I felt fine yesterday. God gave me a day full of fun and blessed me by helping me feel almost 100%. He knew in advance exactly when I would need a lift in my spirits. For Christmas, my friend had bought me a ticket to see Phantom of the Opera downtown! Last night came just in time. I was given the 'princess' treatment, a rose, dinner at P.F. Changs, and the opportunity to witness an unbelievable show! A night on the town with a few of my good friends couldn't be beat. Plus, do to special circumstances a certain someone was also able to come, which made the night all the better. I laughed, cried, and overall just had a great night of relaxation and fun!
I'm blessed with such amazing friends, I often don't deserve the way they treat me, but I'm so grateful.
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Friday, December 16, 2005
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
the long-awaited verse 5 + 6, 7, & 8
NIV
5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and
6 my God.
My [c] soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.
8 By day the LORD directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.
The Message
5Why are you down in the dumps, dear soul?
Why are you crying the blues?
Fix my eyes on God--
soon I'll be praising again.
He puts a smile on my face.
He's my God.
6 When my soul is in the dumps, I rehearse
everything I know of you,
From Jordan depths to Hermon heights,
including Mount Mizar.
7 Chaos calls to chaos,
to the tune of whitewater rapids.
Your breaking surf, your thundering breakers
crash and crush me.
8 Then GOD promises to love me all day,
sing songs all through the night!
My life is God's prayer.
When my life is a wreck and my heart is heavy, reading this forces me to remember who God is and all He has done for me. I remember all the times I have been "downcast" & my soul has been "disturbed within me" and I come through it and can praise again. There is always a hope at the end of the tunnel. No matter what happens, there is always an end and "He puts a smile on my face. He's my God." That's just what he does, as long as I stay faithful. When I'm depressed, this Psalm forces me to count my blessings...to remember all the times he has been faithful. For the Israelites, God was faithful in helping them leave Egypt, conquer the Promise Land, and stand against their enemies. Everywhere they went, they had the Lord's promise of faithfulness, even in the rough times. I love the poetry in verse seven...being covered and swept over by his Spirit...seeing his amazing creation.
Through the day, his love is my hope & joy. When true love is hard to find and superficial pleasure is sought by many around you, the fact that I am his daughter and His love remains steadfast is my comfort and lessens the sense of loneliness which can be created.
"By day the Lords directs his love, at night his song is with me— a prayer to the God of my life." I sing 24/7...songs to Him is what I love to sing the most...some of my favorite prayers are those that I can sing...
the Message seems to take a different spin...
"Then GOD promises to love me all day, sing songs all through the night!
My life is God's prayer."
the thought that He sings about me...that as I sing & praise Him, he is constantly singing his love over me...that is amazing...
"My life is God's prayer." God's cry is my life...he longs for me to serve him, to love him, to have my all....
interesting...i wonder what interpretation was actually meant here...maybe neither of those...
what do you think? or what do you know? any scholars out there to shed some light? =)
5 Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and
6 my God.
My [c] soul is downcast within me;
therefore I will remember you
from the land of the Jordan,
the heights of Hermon—from Mount Mizar.
7 Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.
8 By day the LORD directs his love,
at night his song is with me—
a prayer to the God of my life.
The Message
5Why are you down in the dumps, dear soul?
Why are you crying the blues?
Fix my eyes on God--
soon I'll be praising again.
He puts a smile on my face.
He's my God.
6 When my soul is in the dumps, I rehearse
everything I know of you,
From Jordan depths to Hermon heights,
including Mount Mizar.
7 Chaos calls to chaos,
to the tune of whitewater rapids.
Your breaking surf, your thundering breakers
crash and crush me.
8 Then GOD promises to love me all day,
sing songs all through the night!
My life is God's prayer.
When my life is a wreck and my heart is heavy, reading this forces me to remember who God is and all He has done for me. I remember all the times I have been "downcast" & my soul has been "disturbed within me" and I come through it and can praise again. There is always a hope at the end of the tunnel. No matter what happens, there is always an end and "He puts a smile on my face. He's my God." That's just what he does, as long as I stay faithful. When I'm depressed, this Psalm forces me to count my blessings...to remember all the times he has been faithful. For the Israelites, God was faithful in helping them leave Egypt, conquer the Promise Land, and stand against their enemies. Everywhere they went, they had the Lord's promise of faithfulness, even in the rough times. I love the poetry in verse seven...being covered and swept over by his Spirit...seeing his amazing creation.
Through the day, his love is my hope & joy. When true love is hard to find and superficial pleasure is sought by many around you, the fact that I am his daughter and His love remains steadfast is my comfort and lessens the sense of loneliness which can be created.
"By day the Lords directs his love, at night his song is with me— a prayer to the God of my life." I sing 24/7...songs to Him is what I love to sing the most...some of my favorite prayers are those that I can sing...
the Message seems to take a different spin...
"Then GOD promises to love me all day, sing songs all through the night!
My life is God's prayer."
the thought that He sings about me...that as I sing & praise Him, he is constantly singing his love over me...that is amazing...
"My life is God's prayer." God's cry is my life...he longs for me to serve him, to love him, to have my all....
interesting...i wonder what interpretation was actually meant here...maybe neither of those...
what do you think? or what do you know? any scholars out there to shed some light? =)
Monday, November 21, 2005
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Verse 4
(NIV)
4 These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.
(The Message)
4These are the things I go over and over,
emptying out the pockets of my life.
I was always at the head of the worshiping crowd,
right out in front,
Leading them all,
eager to arrive and worship,
Shouting praises, singing thanksgiving--
celebrating, all of us, God's feast!
Once again I love the Message here, but I give you the NIV because I try not to only read liberal translations but I tend to read the same passage in different types....just me.
I tend to be a very involved person, and I love it. I love doing what I love...which is a lot of different things. I love to worship and tend not to care what others think of me (though that isn't always true). But, believe it or not, there are times when I'm not eager to worship...I don't feel like actually putting in the effort and concentration to truly connect with God, I keep it superficial. I'll "worship" but with no depth...sing, but not get lost in the presence of God. Sometimes it seems to take a focus I can't give. Sometimes the strong grow weak. David was a worshipper, he led the procession when the Ark of the Covenant was brought back to Jerusalem (2 Samuel 6) with DANCING and massive rejoicing...I can just imagine him writing this verse while thinking about that day...and here he is now, filled with discouragement & ashamed that he is no longer there. Desert times are hard. Man, can I relate.
but then comes verse 5...
*to be continued*
4 These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go with the multitude,
leading the procession to the house of God,
with shouts of joy and thanksgiving
among the festive throng.
(The Message)
4These are the things I go over and over,
emptying out the pockets of my life.
I was always at the head of the worshiping crowd,
right out in front,
Leading them all,
eager to arrive and worship,
Shouting praises, singing thanksgiving--
celebrating, all of us, God's feast!
Once again I love the Message here, but I give you the NIV because I try not to only read liberal translations but I tend to read the same passage in different types....just me.
I tend to be a very involved person, and I love it. I love doing what I love...which is a lot of different things. I love to worship and tend not to care what others think of me (though that isn't always true). But, believe it or not, there are times when I'm not eager to worship...I don't feel like actually putting in the effort and concentration to truly connect with God, I keep it superficial. I'll "worship" but with no depth...sing, but not get lost in the presence of God. Sometimes it seems to take a focus I can't give. Sometimes the strong grow weak. David was a worshipper, he led the procession when the Ark of the Covenant was brought back to Jerusalem (2 Samuel 6) with DANCING and massive rejoicing...I can just imagine him writing this verse while thinking about that day...and here he is now, filled with discouragement & ashamed that he is no longer there. Desert times are hard. Man, can I relate.
but then comes verse 5...
*to be continued*
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
My Psalm
So I decided I that I would share with you a piece of me...Psalm 42 is "my Psalm" lol...yes it's everyone's but this is the one that I read over and over, in the really discouraging times and in the good...I'm not going to do it all at once, so here is the first 3 verses in two different translations...
(NIV)
1 As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food day and night,
while men say to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
(The Message)
1 A white-tailed deer drinks from the creek;
I want to drink God,
deep draughts of God.
2 I'm thirsty for God--alive.
I wonder, "Will I ever make it--
arrive and drink in God's presence?"
3 I'm on a diet of tears--
tears for breakfast, tears for supper.
All day long
people knock at my door,
Pestering,
"Where is this God of yours?"
There is an older song which is somewhat based off this scripture "As the Deer"...you know how certain songs can cause your eyes to water every time you hear it? That is one of them for me....
A modern worship song? One of my favorites, we sang today in chapel:
Oh I want more of you,
Living Water rain down on me.
Oh I need more of you,
Living Breath of Life come and fill me up.
We are hungry,
We are hungry,
We are hungry for more of you.
We are thirtsy, Oh Jesus,
We are thirsty for more of you.
No it doesn't come directly from it, and there might be another Psalm it fits more directly, but it has the same main idea as these first verses. I love the Message here: "I want to drink God, deep draughts of God. I'm thirsty for God--alive."
sometimes we lose that desire...we sing that he is the air we breathe & our daily bread but hardly ever experience that desperate cry in our everyday life... I have learned to constantly ask God to take my world apart, which is a dangerous request. Sometimes it means he removes everything familiar in your life and breaks you before Him. It is very dangerous to be on the point where you lose the constant need for more of God. As you mature in your faith, it becomes much harder...you find yourself growing comfortable more often. There are not as many people to push you, you heard it all before...but if we spent every moment of every day with Him, would He ever run out of wonder & mystery?
This reminds me to ask Him to break me & make me need Him more...
When I am having a really rough time, I feel as David writes in verse 3...those few times when i cry on my pillow in the stillness of my room...
*...to be continued...*
(NIV)
1 As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, O God.
2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
3 My tears have been my food day and night,
while men say to me all day long, "Where is your God?"
(The Message)
1 A white-tailed deer drinks from the creek;
I want to drink God,
deep draughts of God.
2 I'm thirsty for God--alive.
I wonder, "Will I ever make it--
arrive and drink in God's presence?"
3 I'm on a diet of tears--
tears for breakfast, tears for supper.
All day long
people knock at my door,
Pestering,
"Where is this God of yours?"
There is an older song which is somewhat based off this scripture "As the Deer"...you know how certain songs can cause your eyes to water every time you hear it? That is one of them for me....
A modern worship song? One of my favorites, we sang today in chapel:
Oh I want more of you,
Living Water rain down on me.
Oh I need more of you,
Living Breath of Life come and fill me up.
We are hungry,
We are hungry,
We are hungry for more of you.
We are thirtsy, Oh Jesus,
We are thirsty for more of you.
No it doesn't come directly from it, and there might be another Psalm it fits more directly, but it has the same main idea as these first verses. I love the Message here: "I want to drink God, deep draughts of God. I'm thirsty for God--alive."
sometimes we lose that desire...we sing that he is the air we breathe & our daily bread but hardly ever experience that desperate cry in our everyday life... I have learned to constantly ask God to take my world apart, which is a dangerous request. Sometimes it means he removes everything familiar in your life and breaks you before Him. It is very dangerous to be on the point where you lose the constant need for more of God. As you mature in your faith, it becomes much harder...you find yourself growing comfortable more often. There are not as many people to push you, you heard it all before...but if we spent every moment of every day with Him, would He ever run out of wonder & mystery?
This reminds me to ask Him to break me & make me need Him more...
When I am having a really rough time, I feel as David writes in verse 3...those few times when i cry on my pillow in the stillness of my room...
*...to be continued...*
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
pearls
WARNING: long post ahead hehe
so we had the big outreach down in Winton Hills this past Sunday and is was awesome! We passed out 300 Thanksgiving meals to families who can't really afford to buy a nice dinner. We had a service and like 400-500 people showed up....it was pretty sweet.
background info: a while ago my church started this group called "Church without Walls"...anyone can help out...basicall what they do is get out of the church to do something for the community, they have fed dinner to all the firehouses in Fairfield, hosted a dinner for the families of soldiers in Iraq, and worked different shelters/homes all around Greater Cincinnati.
One specific place in Winton Hills, specifically the apartments called Winton Terrace. Our church has kind of adopted this community. We have done several things like have big parties, pass out school supplies, have a grocery give-away, and most recently these thanksgiving meals. This was the first time we actually had a type of service.
We needed a place to have it, so we offered to rent the elementary public school building....the answer started out as "that's out of the questiong, especially for religious purposes"...then God worked and it became "you can use it for free, we'll even pay the extra money for the janitorial staff, etc." *God still works miracles.*
I love kids...so before it started I just walked around and played with kids. "My girls" were all so precious. One little girl in particular moved my heart...she was 3yrs. old and after a few seconds she was my buddy and clung to me. I had on a pearl bracelet and I noticed her eyeing it. So I took it off and gave it to her to play with. She examined it and played with it for a little bit and then noticed it was stretchy! so doing what all little kids do, she began to pull it and stretch it until....
oops.
yeah, the pearls all fall, rolling on the floor...
in that instant, was a choice...let the ruination of a $1.50 bracelet destroy my witness, or shrug it off realizing the unimportance of it to the kingdom..
(ok so I dramatized that a little lol)
so I decided to make it a game....who can pick them up the fastest!
of course I let her get all but a few....
she cradled this handful of pearls in her hand like it was a buried treasure she had spent her little life searching for...she looked up at me with mischevious glance...
"Yes, you can keep them"
then I saw the biggest smile appear...her mom carefully helped her zip them in her coat pocket, safe and sound...
after worship I went and sat down on the floor in front of her (she was sitting on her mom's lap)...all of sudden she jumps down and plops on my legs *smile*
I pulled my hair around and she caressed in her hands and "brushed" it, giggling...
then she saw my necklace...it was one of my homecoming necklaces...so I took it off for her to see....she stared at it in her hands and held it to her neck and said "on! *smile*"
as I was getting ready to leave, she looked at me and pointed to the necklace....
"You can have it"
She smiled.
I got to pray with her mom...she was 23 years old, a single mom with 2 girls & two boys (ages were about: 1, 3, 5, & 7)...wow....
so we had the big outreach down in Winton Hills this past Sunday and is was awesome! We passed out 300 Thanksgiving meals to families who can't really afford to buy a nice dinner. We had a service and like 400-500 people showed up....it was pretty sweet.
background info: a while ago my church started this group called "Church without Walls"...anyone can help out...basicall what they do is get out of the church to do something for the community, they have fed dinner to all the firehouses in Fairfield, hosted a dinner for the families of soldiers in Iraq, and worked different shelters/homes all around Greater Cincinnati.
One specific place in Winton Hills, specifically the apartments called Winton Terrace. Our church has kind of adopted this community. We have done several things like have big parties, pass out school supplies, have a grocery give-away, and most recently these thanksgiving meals. This was the first time we actually had a type of service.
We needed a place to have it, so we offered to rent the elementary public school building....the answer started out as "that's out of the questiong, especially for religious purposes"...then God worked and it became "you can use it for free, we'll even pay the extra money for the janitorial staff, etc." *God still works miracles.*
I love kids...so before it started I just walked around and played with kids. "My girls" were all so precious. One little girl in particular moved my heart...she was 3yrs. old and after a few seconds she was my buddy and clung to me. I had on a pearl bracelet and I noticed her eyeing it. So I took it off and gave it to her to play with. She examined it and played with it for a little bit and then noticed it was stretchy! so doing what all little kids do, she began to pull it and stretch it until....
oops.
yeah, the pearls all fall, rolling on the floor...
in that instant, was a choice...let the ruination of a $1.50 bracelet destroy my witness, or shrug it off realizing the unimportance of it to the kingdom..
(ok so I dramatized that a little lol)
so I decided to make it a game....who can pick them up the fastest!
of course I let her get all but a few....
she cradled this handful of pearls in her hand like it was a buried treasure she had spent her little life searching for...she looked up at me with mischevious glance...
"Yes, you can keep them"
then I saw the biggest smile appear...her mom carefully helped her zip them in her coat pocket, safe and sound...
after worship I went and sat down on the floor in front of her (she was sitting on her mom's lap)...all of sudden she jumps down and plops on my legs *smile*
I pulled my hair around and she caressed in her hands and "brushed" it, giggling...
then she saw my necklace...it was one of my homecoming necklaces...so I took it off for her to see....she stared at it in her hands and held it to her neck and said "on! *smile*"
as I was getting ready to leave, she looked at me and pointed to the necklace....
"You can have it"
She smiled.
I got to pray with her mom...she was 23 years old, a single mom with 2 girls & two boys (ages were about: 1, 3, 5, & 7)...wow....
Friday, November 11, 2005
reality
So Pastor Marshall made a good point in chapel on Wednesday...we always say after missions trip and stuff that its now "back to reality" (I'm guilty lol)..,
But shouldn't God be our reality? I mean, I know that getting away from all the distractions and being able to totally focus is somewhat different from the reality we come back to. But shouldn't the presence of God be our constant reality. Shouldn't worship as we have in Memphis be the norm back in Cincy. Maybe it's time for a change of mindset. Maybe instead we should say, it's time to change the reality of life to what it should be. What about the New Testament church? God was their reality, reconciliation was their reality, sharing life together was their reality. My passion is worship. I long to see passionate worshippers come together every week. So I mean everyone has to raise their hands and jump around. not in the least. there is a difference between just standing their and moving your lips or standing still in God's presence spending time connecting with Him. the atmosphere changes when people connect with God, not raise their hands. the God's presence will saturate any place (cincy or memphis) but only if we invite Him. So my prayer is that God would become our reality. There is no reason why not...
reality
n 1: all of your experiences that determine how things appear to you;
2: the state of being actual or real;
3: the state of the world as it really is rather than as you might want it to be;
4: the quality possessed by something that is real;
(www.dictionary.com)
ok so the last definition is one of those bad ones which uses part of the word in the definition lol but at the same time, in my context, I like it. What we have is real...God is real...His Kingdom is real....shouldn't it be our reality?
UPDATE:
my friend Rachel from work has been to Waterline 3 weeks in a row now...continue to pray for her. I'm believing for God's perfect timing to take place, and when that timing comes pray that I or whoever is there will be ready.
God never ceases to amaze me...
But shouldn't God be our reality? I mean, I know that getting away from all the distractions and being able to totally focus is somewhat different from the reality we come back to. But shouldn't the presence of God be our constant reality. Shouldn't worship as we have in Memphis be the norm back in Cincy. Maybe it's time for a change of mindset. Maybe instead we should say, it's time to change the reality of life to what it should be. What about the New Testament church? God was their reality, reconciliation was their reality, sharing life together was their reality. My passion is worship. I long to see passionate worshippers come together every week. So I mean everyone has to raise their hands and jump around. not in the least. there is a difference between just standing their and moving your lips or standing still in God's presence spending time connecting with Him. the atmosphere changes when people connect with God, not raise their hands. the God's presence will saturate any place (cincy or memphis) but only if we invite Him. So my prayer is that God would become our reality. There is no reason why not...
reality
n 1: all of your experiences that determine how things appear to you;
2: the state of being actual or real;
3: the state of the world as it really is rather than as you might want it to be;
4: the quality possessed by something that is real;
(www.dictionary.com)
ok so the last definition is one of those bad ones which uses part of the word in the definition lol but at the same time, in my context, I like it. What we have is real...God is real...His Kingdom is real....shouldn't it be our reality?
UPDATE:
my friend Rachel from work has been to Waterline 3 weeks in a row now...continue to pray for her. I'm believing for God's perfect timing to take place, and when that timing comes pray that I or whoever is there will be ready.
God never ceases to amaze me...
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Memphis, here I come
can't believe it's already here!
i can't wait to see all that God is going to do...expect great things...
Ephesians 3:20
i can't wait to see all that God is going to do...expect great things...
Ephesians 3:20
Monday, October 31, 2005
He's so good...
so my lunch today entailed:
talking to my dad about calling off work
calling my employer to tell her I can't work today and tomorrow
...and all the while crying my eyes out...(which I haven't done in a while)
*stress* is an evil.
but He is faithful...
my nice manager (who is a Christian) was the one who I got put through to and she could tell I was upset...she said don't worry about it because I've never called off like this before and she said she would take care of everything for me...
one thing off...
I called my friend and he prayed for me, which always makes me feel better
little bit more off...
couple of people at school saw it in my face and came to give me a hug
little bit more off...
...no doubt, I'm still pretty stressed, (most teachers are on the "I must get in my tests, projects and mass HW assignments in before missions trip" mode) but I'm trying to rest in the fact that my Jesus will take care of me if I trust Him...He always has.
talking to my dad about calling off work
calling my employer to tell her I can't work today and tomorrow
...and all the while crying my eyes out...(which I haven't done in a while)
*stress* is an evil.
but He is faithful...
my nice manager (who is a Christian) was the one who I got put through to and she could tell I was upset...she said don't worry about it because I've never called off like this before and she said she would take care of everything for me...
one thing off...
I called my friend and he prayed for me, which always makes me feel better
little bit more off...
couple of people at school saw it in my face and came to give me a hug
little bit more off...
...no doubt, I'm still pretty stressed, (most teachers are on the "I must get in my tests, projects and mass HW assignments in before missions trip" mode) but I'm trying to rest in the fact that my Jesus will take care of me if I trust Him...He always has.
overwhelmed...
i feel so overwhelmed...i'm supposed to work tonight and tomorrow night, but i really REALLY need to call off...if you read this, please pray that I have great favor with my bosses...i have so much work to do...there's is no way I will get it all done without a miracle...
thanks for your prayers.
thanks for your prayers.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
She came!
So that girl at my work...she came!
Last night I picked her up at 5pm from work, bought her dinner, and she came with me to Waterline. You never know how someone will react.
I love my youth group so much! I'm never afraid to bring someone there because I know that they will be treated as an honored guest. Anyone who comes is automatically part of our family, without consideration of looks or characteristics. They're really great at making people feel welcome and loved.
so at 6:15 the leaders and anyone there just start praying...praying hard and passionately...so i told Rachel what would happen before it did. She seemed totally cool with it and stood in the back of the room and observed. There is no way you can come and not realize that God is someone real to us. Then I'm in charge of the "welcome center" where all the guests come back and eat a piece of pizza & drink pop while i explain a couple things that go on around waterline (basically worship and small groups). During worship, she stood and observed. What did she observe? Atleast 75 students passionately praising their God. Not caring what others think, but experiencing the true and real presence of God.
another cool thing is that we found out she graduated from Winton Woods with one of the guys attending Waterline. Josh got saved about a year and a half ago, and DRASTIC change has taken place in his life. He used to be bitter and just plain mean to anyone around him. Later she told me "that's not the Josh i knew in highschool...I hated the josh that i knew...he was always mean to me..."
pretty cool
so after everything she thanked me for bringing her and said she would love to come back...
let that sink in....
without me saying anything, the first thing out of her mouth was "Thanks so much for bringing me"
people are looking for something...sometimes they just don't know where to look...
if I was someone living a miserable life and going to hell, i guess I would thank someone who introduced me to people who've found life and took me to a place where I might be able to find that life...
P. Marshall, my youth pastor's sermon last night was about "Bringing the Kingdom"
...it reminded me of you.
Last night I picked her up at 5pm from work, bought her dinner, and she came with me to Waterline. You never know how someone will react.
I love my youth group so much! I'm never afraid to bring someone there because I know that they will be treated as an honored guest. Anyone who comes is automatically part of our family, without consideration of looks or characteristics. They're really great at making people feel welcome and loved.
so at 6:15 the leaders and anyone there just start praying...praying hard and passionately...so i told Rachel what would happen before it did. She seemed totally cool with it and stood in the back of the room and observed. There is no way you can come and not realize that God is someone real to us. Then I'm in charge of the "welcome center" where all the guests come back and eat a piece of pizza & drink pop while i explain a couple things that go on around waterline (basically worship and small groups). During worship, she stood and observed. What did she observe? Atleast 75 students passionately praising their God. Not caring what others think, but experiencing the true and real presence of God.
another cool thing is that we found out she graduated from Winton Woods with one of the guys attending Waterline. Josh got saved about a year and a half ago, and DRASTIC change has taken place in his life. He used to be bitter and just plain mean to anyone around him. Later she told me "that's not the Josh i knew in highschool...I hated the josh that i knew...he was always mean to me..."
pretty cool
so after everything she thanked me for bringing her and said she would love to come back...
let that sink in....
without me saying anything, the first thing out of her mouth was "Thanks so much for bringing me"
people are looking for something...sometimes they just don't know where to look...
if I was someone living a miserable life and going to hell, i guess I would thank someone who introduced me to people who've found life and took me to a place where I might be able to find that life...
P. Marshall, my youth pastor's sermon last night was about "Bringing the Kingdom"
...it reminded me of you.
Friday, October 21, 2005
...i saw her smile...
that girl that has cried every day...
i gave her flowers...
i sent it with a psalm...
i was anonymous...
i saw her smile again...
i love the little things...
i gave her flowers...
i sent it with a psalm...
i was anonymous...
i saw her smile again...
i love the little things...
Monday, October 17, 2005
...being His voice.
it's so fun catching people off guard...there is this girl at work who I've been trying to get to know. Recently I've been slipping in a "you should check out my youth group with me some Wed. night"...well tonight as I was getting ready to leave work, I asked her if she had to work this wednesday night and she said no...so I said "you should come with me then =)"
Girl: (laugh)...I should...I should start talking to God...he needs to help me...mentally hehe...
Me: you mean help you find a guy haha...
Girl: Nu-uh!
SO I got her cell # and told her I would call her tomorrow to see if she could still come...
As we're walking out to leave good ol' K-mart (lol) She says (still somewhat jokingly):
Girl: "You should pray for me"
Me: (pause)...I do.
Girl: (a little silence & then less jokingly) ...you do?
Me: yep =)
So I said "goodbye" and "I'll call you"....
...maybe not this week...who knows...but it's a start...
so if you read this, join me in praying for her...her name is Rachel...
...and pray for me.
I love being His hands...His feet...His voice to a hurting world.
Girl: (laugh)...I should...I should start talking to God...he needs to help me...mentally hehe...
Me: you mean help you find a guy haha...
Girl: Nu-uh!
SO I got her cell # and told her I would call her tomorrow to see if she could still come...
As we're walking out to leave good ol' K-mart (lol) She says (still somewhat jokingly):
Girl: "You should pray for me"
Me: (pause)...I do.
Girl: (a little silence & then less jokingly) ...you do?
Me: yep =)
So I said "goodbye" and "I'll call you"....
...maybe not this week...who knows...but it's a start...
so if you read this, join me in praying for her...her name is Rachel...
...and pray for me.
I love being His hands...His feet...His voice to a hurting world.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
...it's here...
Tomorrow I begin receiving the fruit of something I have put my heart into since school started. I dread the night when I step off the stage for the last time...
...the play is here...
...senior year is here...
*sigh*
love always,
Rochelle
...the play is here...
...senior year is here...
*sigh*
love always,
Rochelle
Thursday, October 06, 2005
...helpless...
Excerpt from "You Know Where to Find Me" by Matthew West
I saw your sky fall down today
Suddenly turn from blue to grey
Till one by one the raindrops
Turned to tears upon your face
Wish there was something I could do
Wish I could ease the pain for you
But I’ve never felt so helpless
It’s like you’re drowning right in front of me
And I’m reaching out but you can’t see
There’s something holding on to you so tight...
This is exactly how I'm feeling...helpless...yeah I know "all you can do sometimes is just be there to love on them and pray for them" and yes I know it's pretty true but still...I feel so....helpless...this song verse came on while I was driving home and tears began rolling down my face...because at this moment in time, the "I" in that verse is me and the "you" is so many of the people around me...and I feel helpless...
I saw your sky fall down today
Suddenly turn from blue to grey
Till one by one the raindrops
Turned to tears upon your face
Wish there was something I could do
Wish I could ease the pain for you
But I’ve never felt so helpless
It’s like you’re drowning right in front of me
And I’m reaching out but you can’t see
There’s something holding on to you so tight...
This is exactly how I'm feeling...helpless...yeah I know "all you can do sometimes is just be there to love on them and pray for them" and yes I know it's pretty true but still...I feel so....helpless...this song verse came on while I was driving home and tears began rolling down my face...because at this moment in time, the "I" in that verse is me and the "you" is so many of the people around me...and I feel helpless...
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
I'm sorry...
Apologies are important...it's amazing what can happen when I get over my stupid pride and ask for forgiveness and even admit that I'm wrong...Even the little things.
Like today, someone said something to me and they were honestly trying to be helpful and I totally blew them off and gave them the "I think you are totally stupid" look...after-the-fact I realized how mean I had been and I went and apologized...not some big fancy 'oh please forgive me because I did something horrible.' Just a simple "I'm so sorry for that look i gave you a minute ago. Thanks so much for trying to help."
That person seemed surprised, which kind of made me sad...shouldn't I be known as humble, I mean I shouldn't do something wrong in the first place but how many times do I forget to make something right, or (probably closer to the truth) CHOOSE not to...
that was just a simple example I know, but there have been so many other bigger situations where an apology on my part was all that was necessary.
That is one thing I admire about my dad. When we fight or disagree and he later realizes he was wrong in what he said or even did, he almost always comes to me with tears in his eyes and tells me that he is sorry...that has to take guts! To go to your teenage daughter and let her know that you realized you were wrong and she was right? Things like that are what I will never forget about him and that I want to make sure I do when I'm a parent...
I'm such a daddy's girl...
Like today, someone said something to me and they were honestly trying to be helpful and I totally blew them off and gave them the "I think you are totally stupid" look...after-the-fact I realized how mean I had been and I went and apologized...not some big fancy 'oh please forgive me because I did something horrible.' Just a simple "I'm so sorry for that look i gave you a minute ago. Thanks so much for trying to help."
That person seemed surprised, which kind of made me sad...shouldn't I be known as humble, I mean I shouldn't do something wrong in the first place but how many times do I forget to make something right, or (probably closer to the truth) CHOOSE not to...
that was just a simple example I know, but there have been so many other bigger situations where an apology on my part was all that was necessary.
That is one thing I admire about my dad. When we fight or disagree and he later realizes he was wrong in what he said or even did, he almost always comes to me with tears in his eyes and tells me that he is sorry...that has to take guts! To go to your teenage daughter and let her know that you realized you were wrong and she was right? Things like that are what I will never forget about him and that I want to make sure I do when I'm a parent...
I'm such a daddy's girl...
Friday, September 30, 2005
homecoming week
So homecoming game is tonight and the "banquet" is tomorrow...i think this week went well...the spirits weren't as high cuz we couldn't do hallways n stuff...but Seniors win and everything's good lol
I think my favorite part was doing the Homecoming King and Queen of the teachers! I loved it...thanks to Mr. Marshall for his help...
ok the bell is about to ring and I head to lunch (thank goodness)...
have an awesome day everyone...
I think my favorite part was doing the Homecoming King and Queen of the teachers! I loved it...thanks to Mr. Marshall for his help...
ok the bell is about to ring and I head to lunch (thank goodness)...
have an awesome day everyone...
what's up?
So I was recently informed that a lot of people have one of these, so I thought I'd join...
Don't really have much to post right now because I must finish my Greek homework n stuff, but maybe later if i'm still awake hehe...
Don't really have much to post right now because I must finish my Greek homework n stuff, but maybe later if i'm still awake hehe...
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